自残

人类啊，都是残忍的种。

对自己，往往比对别人还要残忍。一直逼自己去面对不堪的事。一直考验着自己到底能忍耐多少。

而现在的我，亦是如此。

以前，当得了你身边的那个。却一直在怀疑你心里到底有没有自己。

现在，不再是你身边的那个。却成了你心里永远忘不了的那个。

而你，从以前到现在，一直都在我心里。

你离开了，却也没离开过。

那一吻，充斥着多少的依恋，多少的悸动啊！

不论是你或我，在那一刻，是多么贪婪的想要把对彼此的渴望，一次性show hand。

当时，你由衷的说：我一直都很想你。

这句话，到现在，依然在我心里不断地回荡。重复，在重复的，烙印在我心上。盖过你留下的伤痕。再开出属于你的花。

Should or shouldn't

What happened today, stays in today.

But seriously... I want it.

I stopped you twice, is becoz i am still under construction .. 

Honestly, if i am at clean stage today... IT will happen.

I know it's wrong.

That is what i hated the most.

But.. I still wanted it to happen.

I could've stopped you at the very beginning.

But i melted, when you lean over.

I still can't get over you.

When u said u missed me all the time during the kissing, i stunned.

Your heart beats so fast. I can feel it so clearly as we hugged so tight.

It STILL beats for me.

For once after 7 months, i am face-to-face with my true self again.

I wanted to be with you, again.

Forgive my stubbornness please...

做自己

还记得有一次，我po了一张我卷发的照片。你好紧张地打电话问我是不是真的。

当时的你说： 喜欢我的自然卷。

而最近的我，也po了一张卷发照。一瞬间，仿佛回到了当年。

都是不错的评语吖〜

果然，做自己是最快乐的。

最近，你说我能从你身上偷走一样东西。 我想了好久好久，也还猜不透。  

怎么办，你能告诉我吗？

想得失眠了。

怪我过分容易被感动

过分。

居然用食物来让我融化。

昨天才跟你聊起我最怀念的食物，今天在没有请求的状态下，你居然带着它出现。

老实说，当你说有东西要给我时，我已经猜到你要给我什么了。

还给我迟来的生日礼物。已经挂在包包了。

你说，是会带来幸运的。

呵呵〜

真的好感动。

谢谢你。

By the way, i know you did it purposely when taking your phone and note book out just wanna show me the things that contains of her.

You really are a bustard, dude.

Damn night time emo

Hate to admit. 

But..

I miss you. 

So much.

When walking in the rain during night time, i miss my hoodie-jacket-umbrella of yours.

Damn the moon make me so emo.

Damn.

Damn. 

Damn.

Blue

莫名的，好感伤的一天，

心情好沉重。

好忧郁。

好奇怪。

今天，怎么也都快乐不起来。

你那边，有阴天或是下雨吗？

你还记得我不快乐的时候爱做什么吗？

Nail art always makes me happier.. Well at least a little..

My friends tell me that i look happier and happier.. Yes i did. But why every night when i really settle down, i felt so down and so heavy in my heart? Am i pretending too much? Am i just " pretending" to be happy? I don't know.

Maybe i fake it just to stop the warm worries that make me feel worse instead.

Well.. That's just me. The more ppl are telling me to stay tough, the more i drown under.. The more i wanna stay in that dark, dusty, unhappy, grey world of my own.

Most of the time, faking a smile makes myself feel better instead.

I tend to give hopeful thoughts to myself.

Keep telling myself that, what belongs to you, will stay with you forever. And what doesn't, they will leave eventually. God has his plan for us. Everything happens for a reason... Bla bla bla. ..

I tried. I really tried to believe in these wise quotes.

But, i knew it clearly, deep in my heart.. You are still there. The part of you, just won't stay nicely in the memory file.

Night after night. I still dream of you. Sometimes part of my dream, sometimes you carries the plot of my dream.most of them, are happy. We were so happy, still happy in my dream.

The weird thing is, i hardly had bad dream since you left. Maybe because of your "dark shadow" has stopped guarding me.

If it really exist, i hope he guards you well.

Time Kulture - A Showcase of Contemporary Timepieces

A fabulous launching of timepieces in Pavilion!

It's a cocktail event, the food and beverage was great! I had my 1st lamb in my life and i like it! The smoke salmon was nice too~

 My look for the night~

And guess what~? I met my favorite Host from Red FM- Fiqrie!

Ended the night with 3 glasses of wine~

I feel fabulous! 

近况..

好吧〜 承认吧〜 

你打电话来关心我的近况，我确实很开心。 但是，真的不好这样。

我也曾经是你身边的那个，真的会难过。有意隐瞒任何事，都是不对的。

自从你离开我的生活后，我也不再向任何人交代我的生活。即便是父母，也只是通知而已。

有什么大事呢〜? 吖！ 我把脚毛拔光了！白雪雪，滑溜溜〜〜 呵呵〜 

篮球越打越好了。

跑步机上用跑的时间越来越长。

越来越多人赞我瘦了，漂亮了。

都是好事。你离开以后所发生的每一件事都是好事。

除了，你离开了。

一直都想追踪你的生活点滴。

但你说对了，我不敢联络你。

毕竟，旧情人，还是避忌一点好。

你应该在骂我了。骂我想太多，顾虑太多。

但，你也应该很清楚我的个性。

就这样，不打扰。不是很好吗？

😐

祝你幸福。